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Sunday, February 7, 2010

Happiness and Let Evening Come (Jane Kenyon)

I've been thinking a great deal about the events that have impacted my life and my family's and friends' lives in the last 6 months, and there are some unifying themes.  One that I've already talked about, but I continue to examine is the fact that after bad things happen, the steady drum of time continues.  We can't affect it at all, even though it seems that we should.  Now looking at this, I realize how much this inexorable ticking of the clock saves us too.  At some point, we have to get up and return to our lives, no matter how unbelievable the loss.  Even more unbelievable to me is the fact that happiness might just creep in occasionally, even when it seems as if it can never happen, should never happen, is so wrong to happen, and yet happen it does.  And thank goodness it does!  I don't mean unending happiness, but a glimpse, a laugh together, a smile about the incredibly impossible sadness and loss we feel together...and then perhaps over time, slowly, it isn't so impossible to deal with all the time.  The other thing that is so clear is that we all need comfort, to be comforted, to be touched.  Ok, that's obvious, isn't it?  Well, consider the SICU, the tubes, the lights,the disorientation and it is easy to forget to hug the person who isn't really able to say, "please come over here and hug me because I'm terrified and lonely and scared and in pain." Consider the caretaker who has to deal with the sick person's frustration with being sick and their short temper when they don't feel good, etc.  One of the wonderful people in my poetry class was talking about the poet, Jane Kenyon, and I poked around here and there and found a few pieces that are directly relevant to everything I've just said, and they say it with more depth and fewer words!  you just have to love poetry!
try these:


Happiness (Jane Kenyon)

There’s just no accounting for happiness,
or the way it turns up like a prodigal
who comes back to the dust at your feet
having squandered a fortune far away.

And how can you not forgive?
You make a feast in honor of what
was lost, and take from its place the finest
garment, which you saved for an occasion
you could not imagine, and you weep night and day
to know that you were not abandoned,
that happiness saved its most extreme form
for you alone.

No, happiness is the uncle you never
knew about, who flies a single-engine plane
onto the grassy landing strip, hitchhikes
into town, and inquires at every door
until he finds you asleep midafternoon
as you so often are during the unmerciful
hours of your despair.

It comes to the monk in his cell.
It comes to the woman sweeping the street
with a birch broom, to the child
whose mother has passed out from drink.
It comes to the lover, to the dog chewing
a sock, to the pusher, to the basketmaker,
and to the clerk stacking cans of carrots
in the night.
       It even comes to the boulder
in the perpetual shade of pine barrens,
to rain falling on the open sea,
to the wineglass, weary of holding wine.



Let Evening Come (Jane Kenyon)



Let the light of late afternoon
shine through chinks in the barn, moving
up the bales as the sun moves down.

Let the cricket take up chafing
as a woman takes up her needles
and her yarn. Let evening come.

Let dew collect on the hoe abandoned
in long grass. Let the stars appear
and the moon disclose her silver horn.

Let the fox go back to its sandy den.
Let the wind die down. Let the shed
go black inside. Let evening come.

To the bottle in the ditch, to the scoop
in the oats, to air in the lung
let evening come.

Let it come, as it will, and don't
be afraid. God does not leave us
comfortless, so let evening come

1 comment:

paradise said...

Wonderful...I like reading your comments as much as the poems!