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Hi.  I'm living closely with cancer these days, and I thought I would start recording my thoughts, experiences, mistakes, and successes as this cancer and I live together for many more years, hopefully!  I was initially diagnosed in 1996 at 36, and I lived without evidence of disease for 10 years until I started having pain in my side and ribs.  I rolled over in bed and broke a rib, and I knew-- I had metastatic disease.  That was two years ago.  I've done well on hormonal treatment, but I have really had an education about living with the weight of this diagnosis and its psychologic effects--not just on me, but on everyone who loves me.  I think the whole experience has opened and is opening my eyes in so many ways, and it has raised so many questions for me.  These are the things I'd like to talk about in this blog.